To you (You know who you are)

You promised me you wouldn't leave again. But this time you don't have to. I feel like you aren't ready to have a duaghter in your life. You have two sons. Make sure you stay apart of their lives. And make sure they know that their big sister loves them even though they've never met me. But I just think your life would be easier without having to deal with having me there. I love you dad, and I hope that someday I can be apart of your life again. But I feel like I've just let you down. I feel like I've lied to you. I feel like I betrayed you. I can tell you why I feel like that too. Dad, I cut myself again, even after you asked me to stop. I tried to stop myself. There's so much you don't know about me that I wish I could tell you. But I can't. But dad, I do love you, and not forever... But for now I say goodbye.